You are a slacker
I was tipped off about speaking to you today. Press connect and I'll tell you why.
Things are going from unstable to crazy. Events are overtaking me faster than I have time to take on board what ís going on. As you may know from my previous entries, I have made certain decisions recently that have turned my life on its head. Most men my age go through a mid-life-crisis, well what I am currently going through is just an out-and-out crisis. I was too shortsighted, too careless or just too naive to predict where the results of these decisions were going to take me, and now I am having to deal with that.
There is another side to this coin however: for the first time in a long, long while I am not sleepwalking through life, I am awake. That in itself is some kind of compensation. I'm not suggesting that everyone out there should fly off the handle and do something crazy but I am advising anyone reading this not to wait as long as I did before making a change. I need to go now as I'm not sure how safe it is for me to keep blogging anymore.
I am finally awake
Being constantly reminded of my own mortality is no ball game, but at the very least it has forced me to consider what ís really important in my life and to get my priorities sorted. Complacency is a luxury I cannot afford, one that too many people fail to question, preferring to sleepwalk through their daily routine without ever considering how they would change that day if it was their last one on earth. Yes, I may have taken it to the other extreme and that ís something I am having to deal with at the moment but it also means I get the view from both ends of the bridge. I'm sure there ís a happy medium somewhere in-between and I ask anyone reading this who gives a damn to look for it.
A fate worse than death...
...not the medication, not the fear or even the uncertainty of how little time I have left, the one thing really getting me down today is VEGGIE BACON! In her infinite wisdom, my beautiful wife is watching my cholesterol levels by feeding me this tasteless junk. If she knew the truth she'd realize how low on my priorities cholesterol is.
The life cycle
As many of you know, I have a background as a chemistry teacher. I've come to realize that much of what I teach my students applies not only to what goes on in the classroom, but in life also. It's not as crazy as it sounds. You see, technically, chemistry is the study of matter, but I prefer to see it as the study of change: Electrons change their energy levels. Molecules change their bonds. Elements combine and change into compounds. But that's all of life, right? It's the constant, it's the cycle. It's solution, dissolution. Just over and over and over. It is growth, then decay, then transformation. It's fascinating really. It's a shame so many of us never take time to consider its implications.